Crying in the Workplace

I did it.... I finally f***ing did it. Something I never, ever, EVER wanted to do because no matter how much I complain about being overwhelmed and having to carry an unbelievable load and be superwoman all of the time, I AM NEVER, EVER, EVER supposed to break down at work. AND I had the audacity to do it twice. Once in front of my old boss and again, in front of my new boss. It wasn't that pitiful, boo-hoo crying (thank GOD) but it was the "my team has worked our asses off and it hasn't yielded the results we expected, I'm disappointed, tired and just need to release for a moment" type of cry.
Mind you my old boss, as I've indicated in a prior blog, used to carry on like a madwoman at work (crying, cursing, screaming) when things weren't working out the way she' d hoped. I was a bit choked up and messed up my mascara HOWEVER that is soooooo unlike me, and I despise that type of shit. NEVER let em see u sweat. That's the school I come from. But I did it. I let them see me cry which is even worse. Both my old and new boss were completely sympathetic and very kind but DAMN why the hell am I letting shit stress me out so much that I actually shed a tear at work???!!##$#@!.
I just came back from a 10-day vacation, 7 days of which were spent on a cruise in the Western Carribbean with my man (it was great though I almost killed myself riding an ATV. Will write more on the trip and my near death experience at a later date) but now I feel like I never had a damn vacation. Being the HNIC is not fun and I can't believe I signed up for this shit. I don't want to be the boss anymore. It's too fuckin' stressful! And now I'm crying at work?? What the FUCK?!!?

I am so tired. I need to get my shit together or I might just have a damn nervous breakdown at work and I don't think I could live with myself if I did that. Any way --- What's up w/ me buckling under pressure? I'm acting like a straight bitch-ass punk. But I am soooo damn tired. Hmmmmm, I almost forgot.... this is my PMS week.

Anyway

I received the following piece in an email a very long time ago then someone sent it to me again just recently. I have placed it on my blog so that I can always remember it.

Sometimes I question why I do the things I do. While this piece doesn't give any answers as to why life can at times be cruel no matter what you do, it serves as a reminder that you should always attempt to be the better person regardless of how others might react. I am a true believer in karma - what comes around... you know the rest - no matter what, we should always remember that what we throw out into the universe will always come back to us tenfold. Why not throw out a little positivity?

*People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
* If you do good, people will accuse you of ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
* If you are successful you win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
* The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
* Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
* People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for some underdogs anyway.
* What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
* People really need help but may attack you if you help them.
Help people anyway.
* Give the world the best you've got and you may get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you've got anyway.